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I absolutely HATE THESE KIND OF PEOPLE!!!

hello,
i’ve not met you before,
and if you somehow got my msn from someone,
and you’ve chat with me ONCE in this entire lifetime,
do NOT expect me to remember who you are especially if you are using a funny nickname!
and you still have the cheek to say, “wahlau, how can you forget a friend like me?”

…….

there is a difference between being a FRIEND, an ACQUAINTANCE and a HORNY INSECURE MAN TRYING TO PICK A GIRL UP!

a friend is someone to whom i’ve bonded with and created a beautiful thing called friendship and trust.
an acquaintance is someone to whom a person has met a couple of times and have yet/will never trust.
get your facts straight, dude!
you aint my friend.

worser is when you get everything about me wrong and still dare to say such confidant statements!
for example, “oh  yea! you studied mass comm..”
… really?
i studied mass comm?
when a? which lifetime?

and THEN, with such huge balls, you DARE  to ask,
“are you single?”
and i ignore the question,
and then you ask again, “so… are you single?!”

well, i’ve heard different versions to that question before,
especially from people i dont know.
lines like, “you single a?”
or “got bf?”
or “u bf got a?”
or “u ada bf? i jadi bf u la”

and i think the ultimate mega bomb would be
“eh, i dont want kacau you laa.. later you want to go dating with you bf..”
fishing to know whether or not i am attached is not only NOT sexy, its rude and insecure.

and what makes you think that for a moment there that i owe you an answer to that question?
i dont care whether or not you are interested,
i dont know you.
i dont care whether or not you are insecure,
i dont know you.
i dont care whether or not you are horny,
i dont know you.
i dont care whether or not you think i am hot,
i dont know you.

so EFF OFF!
bring your ‘inquisitive mind’ somewhere else, thank you very much.

after being told over and over again that i looked super short on stage,
and me grumbling and trying to explain that i was given a pair of 2 inch as compared to the others who got a 4 or 5 or their own heels,
its finally over…

the hours leading up to the airing of MMU ‘09 was not a very pleasant one..
i was breaking out in cold sweat and getting super jumpy about everything!
thank the heavens nothing too embarrassing was aired
and i didnt sound too dumb either! hahahahaha
(producer, director and editor, THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!)

after all is said and done,
what really mattered most was not what i did or what i said,
or what anyone else said,
be it “oh i thought you should have won” or “your answer was the best”..
what mattered above all was when my mom called me to tell me that she is proud of me..
(first time yea.. in my entire life..)

that took every heartache, frustration, and worry away.
that was enough…

as we advance with our lives, we tend to wonder why some of our friends tend to not understand us anymore..
some may mock us, some may fade away into the world and some stay..
have you found the solution to that?

i guess we never really find a solution to that
its just part and parcel of life.
but what we can do is to accept it and move on..

everything happens for a reason whether we like it or not
and if our friends choose to turn their backs on us, it is not ours to control.
but what we can control is how we deal with it.
maturity comes with the choices we make and the lessons that we learn from.

if your friends fall out of understanding, dont fret.
everyone moves at their own pace regardless of how much others may influence or push them.
when and if a person matures, it is at their own pace………………. or never
whether or not you meet again at the same point in life is left entirely up to choices.
one can never try to make someone mature.
someone wise once told me,

“Never slow to a walk or crawl just because someone else cant catch up with you (mentally). Everyone moves at their own pace. All you can do is hope they catch up with you at some point in the race.”

everyone has a different path to discover
and in this process of discovery, we grow and we change to adapt
some paths may be parallel some may go in different directions and some goes off tangen
but the beauty in life is that some of these paths, for whatever reason, crosses again sometime later in our lives.

however, we as humans cannot easily accept that people come and go,
especially when it comes to the people we hold dear.
we always try to hold on to them for whatever its worth.
but sometimes it really isnt worth holding on to.

life is such that if the right choices were made, and if circumstances grants us permission, friends will meet again
creating either an even stronger friendship or losing it entirely.

nothing is ever certain,
some may say that the destination is what’s important and how we get there does not matter.
i say they are both equally as important as the journey there is what shapes us to be the person we are and will be.

true friends are those who will stand up for you no matter the accusations.
they are also the ones who will confront you and set you right.

we are always going to be at this juncture as we meet and lose people every day.
but the singular most important thing you need to know and remember is that
as long as you know who you are,
you know what you are,
you know where you are heading
and you know who loves you,
its enough.
It really is enough.