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its a funny thing really, this thing called life.
just when u thought u had everything signed, sealed and about to be delivered, huge ass paper shreading machines would fall from the sky, unanounced, and shred everything to teeny meeny pieces (like our lives are jokes of nature).
just when u think u’re able to reach for your dreams, your fingers gets cut off (ok fine i know i sound like a morbid lil ass).
its true i tell u!

but its definitely not going to stop me from doing what i want to do
and its not going to turn me into some goth chick..
although i’ve always been tempted to try goth… hmmm…
am currently at a cross road in life
should i or should i not give up my music for now
to give up my passion
ok, maybe not give it up entirely, but rather, push it aside for a while,
and concentrate on solving the problem(s)
but before that, i’ll have to find the courage to face myself and a part of reality which i’ve been trying to deny for a very long time now..
ahhhh… decisions decisions…

and yet through it all, life is a beautiful thing
be it man made,

or of nature

better still if i’m able to capture the beauty with my digicam! (hint hint~ me want dslr kekeke..)
but yea la… life aint fair or unfair..
life just is
its what we make of it that matters

besides, life is always full of surprises!
a whole load of badshit can happen to u
but if u’d just calm yourself down at the end of the day, u’d come to realise that no matter how bad your day/life is, there’s definitely something good that happened that u might have overlooked or chose to ignore.
like maybe a kind stranger offering u his parking spot, or an uplifting smile from a passerby, someone holding the door open for u, or coincidentally sitting down just in time to catch your fav series/sitcom..
anything and everything good thats under the sky can happen, but only if u allow yourself to see and feel them, even at the darkest point in your life

i’ve recently received news that a friend, whom i trusted and thought of as a close friend, backstabs me.
even when she was nice to me and all.
apparently it is out of jealousy.
and i wonder why.
she’s gorgeous, smart, and living a very good life here even before she left for her own country.
i cant say i’m surprised, but i cannot say i’m not hurt
and i am, again, reminded as to why i chose not to have that many close girl friends.
but i guess its something i’ve got to accept,
no matter how much i dont want to believe that she is that way.
oh well…
at least i’ve already got a handfull of girl friends i can trust
and even better still, i’ve got some really caring, really down to earth twins who are absolute darlings

cant wait to see them again!

oh and i’ve also been hanging out with manboobies and gang..
they’re absolutely entertaining
plus i think i can trust manboobies hahahahahaha
he’s so gonna kill me

ahhh i miss performing!
i miss bumbleass!
this picture was taken after our performance for Eriksson at the Singapore Flyer

and this is my perk of the day… or should i say, week!

someone i met briefly did this wallpaper of me
i absolutely LOVE it!
love the colours, love how he put two pictures into it…
i think he’s got talent!
cant believe he drew that..
so touching kan