“nobody said it was easy… no one ever said it would be so hard”
i honestly thought i’ve learnt this lesson last year…
remember when i said that nothing is certain even if its on black and white?
yeah well i guess i forgot about that…
the world does not give a rats ass whether or not u’ve got your life all planned out…
it does not even care whether or not u’ve just got a promotion or a new job or just lost a loved one..
it goes on and on and on like a sick roller coaster ride joke with Mr. Pennywise at the controls laughing his evil clown head off…
in just three short days, i managed to find myself stuck in a ‘political’ struggle at work, get my sorry ass replaced cos i aint famous enough, got put on hold for a permanent gig and fall deeper into depression.
mind u all these are separate events in themselves.
i’m actually afraid to ask, “could anything else go wrong?!”
*frantically touching wood* *touch touch touch*
surprisingly, after that three hell-on-earth days, i found myself getting fed-up with life and wanting to move on as quick as i could.
i found myself picking myself up faster than i use to.
only problem is, the setbacks took a toll on me too.
its between, “its time to move on.. do something different.. create a brand new life” and “u’re not good enough.. nothing works out.. u’re useless and a failure.. just give up”
hey, dont give me shit about this.. u’ll know how it feels like if u’ve ever been in depression..
its just hard to conjure passion and motivation.
hard like H.A.R.D.!
sigh~
i actually thought that with my two stable and one freelance job, i can finally get me my own dslr and start persueing my photojournalism dream..
but nope… life said, “Oops~! i think i just flushed your dream down the toilet! sowee~” *shy look*
and u’ll see me standing by the sea waving the D90/D700 and the 35mm 1.8 prime lense a heartwrenching goodbye like i was sending it to the afterworld…
i know i know… nothing is certain… nothing is permanent…
and i know i ’should have’ a lot of things…
but a person just cant help feeling like crap after having the mat pulled out from under ‘em…
there’s a time to be irrational, irrational and… well, irrational.
sometimes, being rational will have to wait..
a time of withdrawal is time to heal.

When I am with him, I am thinking of you
Wow wow wow. I’ve been following MTV reality show called The Girls of Hedsor Hall, it is about collecting 12 of the wildest, out of control girls in America, put them in an English school & change them into a young lady. So, along the way, they’ll show a bunch of crazy things the girls did in their past & last Sunday was the season finale episode.
I was looking forward to knowing who will win. Of course I have my own favourite of winner but MTV punye one liner summarization of the video destroy the anticipation. They reveal in the one-liner summary that Kimberly was going to win zzz. So, what’s the point of watching the video if the one-liner already reveal the winner zzz. Nevertheless, I still watched the video.
& just recently The Hills Season 5 is back. This time MTV edit The Hills punye… well I don’t know what you call it.. you know the part where they introduce all the cast… yeah, that intro part. If you compare, the intro part in season 4 and season 5 is different. & I prefer the season 4’s intro cos it makes them look so rich & fabulous, that they are living in a Hollywood life that some of us dream of. The way it was portray like,”Bam bam bam” all the cool activities that they do, match with the music beat plus what I love is the camera swirling & light sparkling. It is so smart of MTV to edit that way.
But in season 5, it was like… MTV just put them up for duno what sake.. no meaning, no direction… just very blah.
Watch the video if you don’t understand. I’m really bad with describing things. Sumimasen.
Season 4
Season 5
Love Katy Perry. Love her video. Enjoy:)
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It's really really touching. The guy's name is Nick Vujicic.
As promised=)
She is almost two months old now, but the photos below were taken quite some time ago d..
Apparently she just loves the camera, and the more pics my sis take of her, the more reluctant she is to go to bed.=P So my sis decided to not take so many photos of her.=(
I will probably go to kluang end of may. So when i see her, i will take lots more photos!! The plan is to play with her till she gets really tired. Then she ma will sleep la right?*ngiek ngiek ngiek*
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Universiti Teknologi MARA, Selayang
easier to pronounce as UiTM Selayang, a dedicated campus for their faculty of medicine, i was honoured to be part of the design & build team, although just a small part. my part was just to check the design that my senior did, and indeed it was tough! the moment i got involved, i was [...]
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