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freck this year went by damn bloody fast!
it seemed like a long ass year thou.
but what a year this has been.

i am writing this post as an emotional wreck so it’ll be another emo post i guess.

from never wanting to join pageants, i’ve done two this year and even landed myself as 2nd runners up.
reading my birthday post from a couple of months back, i commented that i want to travel, meet new ppl, photograph, experience new things and work with kids.. well, i got my wish at the painful expense of someone i dearly love and want to spend the rest of my life with.
i was given an opportunity of a lifetime to do something that i did not want to do, and i ’threw’ it away simply because i did not want to do it.
i’ve learnt to love, understand, give in, domesticate, and finally be comfortable in a relationship which i thought would be a certainty that it would be forever.. i hope i am not mislead in blindness and ignorance.
there were so many ups and downs this year, emotionally, that i felt like i was strapped to an evil roller coaster who had a mind of its own to torture me for the fun of it.. but i learnt to love.. and that is most important.
given how i used to be, i am ashamed of certain personality traits that i’ve picked up along the way this year which i’m trying to amend right now.
met a lot of people, some of which i became friends with, some super close friends, some i aspire never to be, some i rather not see ever again.. but all have taught me valuable lessons in life.
rekindled some friendships along the way, given how close we are now, i’m glad i gave the friendships some room to breathe and time for each of us to grow at our own pace.
had the rare opportunity and luck to be able to wake up every morning to the person i love and want to better myself for.
disappointment is the word i’d use on myself when i look at how i have been handling a lot of things in my life this year.
frustrated as i am that i have not been appreciative of the little and simple things in life, at least i have next year and, hell, tomorrow to do so!

so, as for this coming year, i do not wish to resolute much.
only the simple things.

1. to have the guts to be decisive
2. to be a responsible human being not only to myself, but to others whom i love
3. tell the people whom i love that i love them
4. be grateful and live life with no regrets
5. love boldly.. and have faith

here’s to another amazing journey!
2010.

oh, and karma’s one heck of a fair bitch!

better days – goo goo dolls

image © Bill Watterson

is not only powerful
but is also frustrating
painful
sacrificial
uncertain
and above all,
worthwhile

Despite the 3 months ++ long break, it feels like it's been only 3 week.
I've yet to sit in a corner and count my blessings and write my new year's resolution (...which let's face it,we all know that i'll never fulfil)


but what could do now is give thanks to the Lord for being with me throughout this whole year.
it was not easy.. in many ways, this year has more bumps than the ones before..
but never the less, it was one hell of a ride :D
it was more like a roller-coaster ride. and i really hate them things.
i'm so AGAINST height and indulging myself in puking sensations.
but as crazy as those rides were, at the end of it, you'll always come out feeling happier knowing you're alive.

next year, it'll be a greater ride.
i'm already scared shitless by the thought of graduating and working
(like WHAT?!already?! where did the 4 years go?!!)
i'm even more scared at the thought of my mandatory KoK lesson which is tennis *cue horror music*
which; did i forget to tell you? i'm really bad at sports..
i'm more worried over not being able to hit the ball properly than trying to score for next sem.

but yeah. i could really use a quiet Christmas.
maybe go to church for the celebration thing.. and back home.
to continue packing...

Thank you Lord for Jesus and Christmas and all the blessings bundled in the gift of salvation.

so okay!
have a Merry Christmas everyone!.
don't over-eat.
or you'll have another resolution to add to your list.