are u a project or a perfection?
somethings are best left unsaid.
but if some things need to be said,
then they'd better be obscure enough to prying eyes.
also because blogger has yet to come up with post option that limits my choice of readers. bah!
ok. since i've not rant in a long long time...let me start
but before i do so, feel free to stop reading..
unless this makes any sense to you.
it does to me.but i'm not too sure about you..
were we ever on the same wavelength?
bah! whatever, u read, u don't, i cannot be bothered. free country innit?
this is going to be a LONG post.
you've been warned.
let's talk love/attraction/whatever you call that dopamine-serotonin-oxytocin feeling.
everybody wants perfection.
but perfection does not have to come in a 6pack-abs/Barbie's body, good teeth and sinless personality package.
perfection comes in the "oh, i can tolerate you eating rocky road,pecan ice cream day in day out and i love that love handles on you because i love you" package.
you still with me?
there's a trend in the movies and books that i have been reading..
like why good girls go for bad guys..
just my humble opinion, and of course i am not discriminating..
1 word : daddy-issues.. (hmm..or does that make it 2 words?)
>> bad joke. i'm not even laughing. forgive my crudeness.sorry!!!
bad connotation! sounds like a stripper with a problem.gah~ i can be so tactless.
i would just say, these girls; they, CRAVE project.
why not..if you are a perfectionist.. everything is a project and you would go around fixing anything and everything till it's perfect in your eyes.
i've yet to see a project-craving guy. if you know what i mean.
it's always either they go for the girl or they don't.
there's no going after the girl and then trying to fix her.
maybe they are realistic, you know, people say, PEOPLE DON'T CHANGE.
so men(at least the ones i've seen thus far) never try to fix something broken or a lost cause.
women, crave projects.
fix, fixing and more fixing.
don't believe me? then why are there so many beauty products and regiments out there?
because women always want to achieve perfection.
romantic comedy on the other hand, feeds women with the fantasy that people (men) can actually change.
fed on that, women never stop hoping that one day that guy of theirs is going to take the initiative and do their laundry for once. (just an example lar k not that you guys don't do your laundry..)
seriously, how many times have you watched a movie where in the end, bad guy repents and turns to be a spanking good guy? like all the time no?
being human, and always wanting to believe in the best,
i do try to believe that people can actually change and be good.
well even if that is true..
but lets ponder on this...
why would you want to embark on a project in the first place?
when there are plenty quite perfect without projects out there?
what if all you've been fighting for is not worth fighting at all?
why, you may ask i am raving like this?
because i was bored
and i 've been watching romantic comedy a-plenty this holidays..
wish me luck in retaining my sanity.
if i'm doing arts/ human study.. this would pretty much be my paper.
lol.
oh, i'll save the ranting on how Gossip Girl is fast becoming less appropriate for viewing..
(forget it, i think i'll just say it now)
like everyone has slept with almost everyone close enough without committing incest
that they have to make a threesome in order to make things more exciting.
which i feel lacks class and is trying a little to hard, if not overboard, in trying to gain viewership.
not that i'm against free will or freedom of choice and believing that people can actually discern the line between right and wrong.
but if i were to make a chart of who has slept with who.. you'll freak.
ok, not that i'm against threesome, but the newsletter which says having a threesome is among top 15 things to do for the ultimate college experience.. on gossip girl,come on, i bet you'd feel a little awkward too no?
ok... maybe i am not as open minded as you all.
i don't even know why i'm watching junk.. i just do ..
i watch junk sometimes. it's SO me.
ok. no.
like i said, i always believe people can be good.
and i've always believe that GG could always be better than that.
but, what of disappointment?..
moving on to happier things,
SPM's started which marks the start of my official duty as a chauffeur.
sister claims she hadn't had much time reading to complete her revision..
well since, my grandfather being admitted into the hospital followed by the funeral and all.
may his soul R.I.P, that sweet man. just hoping that the grandmother will not feel too lonely.
ooh, i digressed.. back to topic.
sis's pretty upset, claimed she hadn't the time to check her answers..
which then spurred the discussion/reminiscence/good ol' days
between my mom and sis about me when i was sitting for my SPM.
i don't remember it, but they claimed once i came home really down and dejected after a paper,
and cried and then spent the whole day sleeping even i had another paper the next day.
not cool. not cool at all.
but i don't remember that i did that at all.
oh well, you know what they say about the mind suppressing bad-traumatizing memories..haha
funnily enough, i remember crying for my STPM chem paper.
that objective thingie.
you know the part where you have to pick
A. I, II dan III
B. I dan II
C.II dan III
D. I sahaja
i was always bad at objective choices.. MCQ is worse than having to write essays.
so out of the 10 questions i got like 9 wrong. FML. ahah so paiseh!
i was so sad..i remembered crying on the phone then going to bed.
but i remembered studying Organic real hard for my paper 2.
and thank God, managed to scrape through with a B. =.="
there can be nothing more terrifying than having to sit STPM all over again.
it's a recurring nightmare...
Mrs Tan looking at my pitiful state of a Pure Maths result... *shudders*
so well, here's a shoutout to F5 ppl out there, or future SPM candidates.
may you do better than what i did. :D
i honestly do not want to experience what i've been through.
*shakes head* shouldn't have spent my time dating..tsk tsk
hahaha nola,i don't regret that. :p
this is probably the longest post ever.
taking into account that it will appear on tl's barghers.com
i am SO SORRY for spamming the page with my nonsense.
SORRY!!!!
*cue super junior's sorry sorry music
oh.. i stuffed e-books into my mobile. i can safely read them and not have to make awkward conversation with people next time i'm at a real awkward outing. haha!!!
ok, i'm not really helping in making this post any shorter.
so bye!!! not expecting you to read until the end..
i've expected for your mind to wander by the 2nd paragraph.
but thank you for reading. i know i can a such a pain at times.
but, i love you just as much as you love me. maybe even a little more :D
bye bye~
