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i’m back in cambodia!
but this time i’m not in Siem Reap..
i’m at a place called Sihanoukville..
its a four hour bus ride from Phnom Penh…
well, if u’re rich enough, u can hire a car.. its ONLY 80USD (so expensive!) but it cuts your travel time in half..

well, anyways, i’m here for a conference..
its a general conference by SEAPC called Friends around the Table..
all the leaders of the different countries, that seapc is working on, are here giving their updates, talking about what they are planning to do in the future..
its a great opportunity for me to meet a lot of great people..
people who are smart, caring and giving..
only thing is, i’m the youngest person here
and they think i’m married..
damn insulting
sigh~
i think its the ring that i’m wearing
should take it off…

to cut the story short, i’m learning a lot here..
i’ve gotten ideas and of course am getting a lot of contacts to help with what i want to do in the future

and of course, being me, i love taking pictures
the only problem is, i’m using a dslr that i’m not used to..
(dont own a dslr)
and a lense thats apparently very hard to use..
the prime 50mm lense.
so all the pictures that i took that i thought were going to turn out amazing, turned out like crap..
all the nice shots of cute kids on the beach..
ARGH!
i’m SO DAMN FRUSTRATED imma SCREAM!
i am seriously contemplating switching back to using my lil ixus…
we’ll see how things goes

i might extend my stay cos half of the group are heading to orphanages after the conference
the other half are heading to Laos
but if i stay i’ll have to forgo my current air ticket and purchase another
which reminds me..
we missed our flight here on saturday and had to get another set of tix for sunday morning
long story..
pretty interesting  adventure though..
ahahahaha..
dont think  stinky would agree with me
ahahahaha….

anyhow,  this is a picture that i took of this  ADORABLE kid by the beach
the focus is a little off
but whatever..
he’s too cute
so GERAM~

super cute right?!
he was laughing and smiling when i showed him the pictures that i took of him!
the look on his face was priceless!
i LOVE this kid!
we took some other pictures
i got to carry him..
i wanna adopt him!
like seriously..
cambodian kids are damn adorable!
okok i’m getting a little too disgustingly musshy hahaha
i’m gonna stop now

okay, i’ve gotta admit that i wasnt feeling very the happy bout aging…
and on the 17th, there were a couple of plans here and there but i just didnt feel like going through with any of them…
last min during dinner, we decided to go to cloth and clef at changkat bukit bintang.
but linda got a sudden bout of diorrea so she had to stay home…
and than julz called and told me that he was gonna leave CC to head to laundry..
i was so not happy bout the whole…. thing! day! whatever u wanna call it
oh wait, did i mention that the house electricity kept trippin’?
nak mandi pun tak boleh…
every time i take the towel off and poured water over my body, the lights go off
so i had to dry myself in the dark, put the towel back on, and head downstairs to correct the ELCB
guess how many times it happened?
FIVE TIMES!
hahahahahahaha… now when i think about it, its hilarious..
i gave up in the end and hurriedly took a shower in the dark..
and tried to dress in the dark..
well, after that i figured out what was wrong with the ELCB so, well, i could put my clothes on in a decent manner….

and after that, manboobies said he could pick me up..
so i agreed and followed him to wherever he was to go
(so sad kan… no plans, no internet, no electricity…)
and guess where we ended up at?
some dodgy all indian (i’m NOT racist… i’m very much indian inside) club where there was a stripper wannabe… 
and worse off, these idiots went and told the singers and dj that it was bday and they HAD to single me out la… ish…
(i seriously hate being stared at…)
but i had baileys.. a huge glass so i was pretty, erm… contented? hahaha

anyways, after that we went to TTDI Plaza and into this club called TAO..
i like that place… the interior is very, homely.. 
a very nice place to chill out… have some beer… dance…
should really check that place out if u can..!
anyways, bumped into DJ Bernie there
and he knew it was my bday..
so he went up and, well, announced it to the club…
sigh~ the embarrassment…

nothing much happened after that…
but at 6:15am my phone rang..
guess who it was?
the FLYFM pagi crew!
hahahahaha…
it was hilarious…
fabes, ben and nadia were singing at the top of their lungs..
but it really cheered me up.
really made my day
needless to say, i couldnt sleep after that hahahahahaha

and today, i finally got to met khairy, vivienne’s son
we had lunch at TGIF…
wrong move kan?
i totally didnt think they’d tell the crew..
and needless to say, my naivity got me into shit… ahaha
i got the whole TGIF birthday treatment…
gosh was it embarrassing!
my face never burnt this badly before!!!!!

met up with usamah after that…
we went around pavilion for a while..
he got me a health bracelet..
really cute looking thing hahaha…
it was fun catching up with him after such a long time..
got to bully him even more.. hahaha

after that i rushed off for practice in ampang..
and i thought they all didnt care..
had dinner at sushi king with rav…
plus he said he was broke…
manatau after practice, he passed me my present..
and its the BEST PRESENT EVER!
its the silk batik outfit that i once wore for MIFA..
been wanting to get it ever since the first time i laid eyes on them..
and now i own them!
he’s really the coolest brother…
last year he gave me my dhol..
my beloved bumbleass…
this year this…
gosh~
how not to love him to bits kan?

oh and thank u for ALL THE WISHES!
its pretty overwhelming actually…
all the wishes on facebook, by text..
pat, raymond, albert, shengjon, seahway, taileong, jinwen, annie.. thank you! 
and of course, to will for the book (will always treasure it), ann for the dress (its lovely and everyone loves it.. thanks dear), to RAV (u know how much i’ll treasure it… and yes i love u heaps even if i dont ever mention it to your face, shy…), usamah for the bracelet, vivienne for the lovely lunch, linda and lallu for being there for me, bernie for the lovely lovely dedication, fabes and the morning crew for the wonderful birthday wish, manboobies for letting me be the annoying and irrational bratty bitch that i was, mwah!…
(all these little gestures really made my birthday)
and of course, daddy, mommy, thank u for being all notty and horny and having me
i LOVE YOU BOTH!

and also, HAPPY BIRTHDAY dearest LINDA! i dont want u to leave~
i dont think anyone else wants u to, either
sigh~
rodin, have an awesome and memorable birthday..
wish i could have celebrated it with u
love u both 

my freaking birthday is coming soon!
its in less then 2 weeks!
just imagine that
OMG OMG OMG…

i can feel my bones aching,
my stamina is running out,
i’m sleeping shorter hours,
i’m seeing wrinkles on my face,
my complexion is not as nice as it use to be,
my fats are taking a longer time to burn,
i’m feeling like i’m 35 years old inside…

yea yea yea…
me is so very the drama…
hahahahahaha

but yea, i’m NOT looking forward to my birthday..
AT ALL!
nobody will be able to find me on my birthday…
i’ll be hiding somewhere.. 

oh did i mention that i’ll be moving out soon?
i’ll be staying with annie
so i’ll have to start looking for a place as soon as possible cos she’s due to start work next month

and also, MAY IS BACK!
caught up with her yesterday
i like the new her
different but not quite different
hard to explain it
but the way she views things now has changed
and yes, ppl do change whether u like it or not
and i finally met Will Chua after eons of only msging and emailing
we’ve got some stuff up our sleeves!
its going to be interesting
i’m very excited
but there are a lot of things that needs rethinking and restructuring
oh well, part and parcel of life

and btw, i’m with manboobies @ devi’s corner in bangsar right now
some ppl, work 5 steps away from devi’s, and still wanna come back here on a sunday!
what a freak~

okay.. toodles!

so i guess my so called ‘hallusinations’ or ‘visions’ didnt come true
which is a freaking good thing considering i’ve been freaked out the entire day
but its not over yet
these kinda things can happen any time any place
so now if ever u read about my death in some freak accident like the one i visioned, u’ll know life is full of freaky shit
hahahahaha
but whatever
i’m going to drop it
hahahahaha

anyways, if u’ve never watched the movie ‘Amazing Grace’, please do.
its an amazing movie, like the title itself
it will touch a cord in u that u’ve never notice was there
but then again if u’re some heartless-bitch, it might not make a difference

other then that, in less then 24 hours, it’ll be heaps of ppl’s bdays
namely:
- choy wan
- may wan
- joanne ho
- zebby
- catherine wong
(and also a couple of other ppl of which i’ve forgotten who but i know its their birthday.. blame it on my goldfish memory)

so….

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

may and choy,
u’ve both been really good friends and sisters to me
i love u both to bits and pieces
choy, thank u for always being supportive and giving me advice and listening to me
u’re like the elder sister i never had
i’m so sorry i could not make it to singapore for your birthday celebration
will make it up to the both of u when i can
wishing u a lovely and memorable birthday
may especially (u know why)
i miss u!!
come back to malaysia soon!!
huuuuuuuuuuuugggs!

zebby,
i’m sorry for all the things u have to go through right now
i wish there was something i can do
and i’m always going to be there when u need to talk
or even if u just need silence
i love u
do try to have a good bday my dear
hugs u tight~

joanne ho,
i havent been in touch for a while now
we’ve drifted apart as friends
but i’d still like for u to have a great bday
u’re turning 21
its a scary age in the sense that, u’re finally, officially, an adult
there will be heaps of responsibilities coming your way from now on
but do try to live your life at a slow pace and dont try to grow up too fast
have a great one!

catherine wong,
i trust u had a very enjoyable pre-birthday celebration at scarlet last saturday
and we did some really ‘funny’ things
hahahaha
still, i’m wishing u a very happy birthday
hugs~

and also to joceypie
your birthday has pass
but i still want to take this opportunity to wish u, again
i’m glad to have a friend like u
u’re forever happy and trying to make others happy
in terms of personality, i think u’ve got one that everyone should have
but do know that whenever u need to talk, i’ll also be there
even if it is to ramble nonsensical stuff, share more music, or talk about cheese (like last year hahaha)
your randomness always cheers me up
and i’m pretty sure it does everyone else too
i love u to bits
u’ll always be my ‘bubbly’ hahaha
and its too bad we are not always in touch
but i always hope that u’re well
again, happy belated birthday
love u
huggies!

was catching up with her after a loooooooooooooooooong while..

oh btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
wish u are here so we can celebrate together…

anyways, she posted this very encouragin quote on facebook just now at 7:13pm
i love her~